"He cries in the corner where nobody sees,
He's the kid with a story no one would believe.
He prays every night,
"Dear God, won't you please, could you send someone here who will love me?
Who will love me for me,
Not for what I have done or what I will become.
Who will love me for me,
Cause nobody has shown me what love, what love really means."
(These are the first few verses of JJ Heller's song, What Love Really Means. )
We've been home almost 2 months, and with that, comes an understanding of what our children have been through. There ARE stories that no one would believe. There are still tears in the corner where no one will see. There are hurts and aches and insecurities and years of pain...
BUT
Oh, my precious children! God heard your prayers for a father Isaiah, and He felt your pain Ruth. He did send someone to show you what love really means!
I still look at you, and in complete humility before my King, wonder why He chose us?! Of all the more qualified, more patient, more compassionate families in the world, HE chose us. He chose us to love you. To teach you. To bestow upon you a new name and a new identity. But all of this is NOTHING compared to the fact that He chose us to be the recipients of YOUR love - your life-sustaining, never ending, unconditional love. We are the ones that are blessed with your laughter and your innocent inquisitions, and your delight in life.
Some days I feel like I am on the receiving end of a miracle I didn't even ask for.
So to you Isaiah, I'm telling you now and forever:
I will love YOU for YOU.
Not for what you have done or what you will become,
I will love you for you.
I will show you what love really means.
I will love YOU for YOU. For the gentle, athletic, inquisitive, helpful and smart child of God that you are.
I will love YOU for YOU.
So to you Ruth, I'm telling you now and forever:
I will love YOU for YOU.
Not for what you have done or what you will become,
I will love you for you.
I will show you what love really means.
I will love YOU for YOU. For the funny, dancing, story telling, gift giving, pure child of God that you are.
I will love YOU for YOU.
Tears! The story of adoption is so true that way! I felt the same with maliah and was always amazed at how many would and still do "My how blessed SHE is". I would always giggle inside and have finally gotten bold enough to say "Have you spent anytime with her ... as there is no question, we are far far more blessed than she". I love following your journey! What sweet blessings HE is bestowing on each of you. It's a journey for sure ... but one that has the sweetest and most precious moments.
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ReplyDeleteBeautiful! What an honor it is to parent our blessings! LOVE THIS!!!!
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